Gratitude Archive

Intertestamental Period

LoLo Roberts

I am currently enrolled in Opened Bible Academy, spending two and a half years drawing closer to God and better understanding His Word. I learned that the period between the last writings of the Old Testament and the arrival of Christ, known as the “intertestamental” period, serves as a bridge of waiting, hope, and anticipation. It stretches from when the prophet Malachi ended the Old Testament to the powerful preaching of John the Baptist, marking a transformative phase in spiritual history.

I am in a transformative period, feeling God shift and shape me. The Holy Spirit is empowering me with strong discernment for my nonprofit ministry. I am experiencing a profound closeness to God, even as I navigate feelings of distance from others.

I truly feel God’s presence in my life, and during this time of deep reflection, I find myself wanting to create some space from others. It’s a challenging balance, as I know what’s best for my nonprofit through divine guidance, yet I also recognize the need for human support in this journey.

God was silent for 400 years, but why was He silent? He was working. God orchestrated conquests, victories, and defeats. He established trade routes that would be used in the future during Jesus’s ministry to move from region to region. God also coordinated the Maccabean revolt against the Seleucid Empire and the rededication of the Temple in Jerusalem. Everything was aligned for His purpose and plan. He was putting everything in its proper place for when John the Bapitizer arrived to prepare others for the arrival of the Messiah.

I know that my “intertestamental” period, marked by its unique challenges and experiences, will not extend for 400 years. I do know God is at work as I sit here, waiting for His next step. Silence from God is not absence or forgetfulness; it is preparation happening behind the scenes. Over the past seven years of working in this nonprofit, I have learned the value of patience and the importance of not pushing my own agenda. I know the Holy Spirit well and can discern His guidance, understanding that others do not personally receive God’s message for me.

I genuinely value the kindness and support I receive from others as I journey through the complexities of growing my nonprofit. However, I often find myself grappling with how to articulate my needs in a way that resonates. It can be disheartening when their interpretations seem so distant from my original intentions, leaving me feeling misunderstood and, at times, even isolated in my vision.

I recognize that this journey can often feel lonely, yet I find solace in believing that God is guiding me every step of the way. Even in solitude, His presence is a constant source of strength. He understands my heart’s depth and my unwavering commitment to Him. This connection fills me with hope and reassurance, reminding me that I am never truly alone.

I will continue to move forward, embracing the journey and recognizing that everything unfolds in its own time. This is a comforting reminder that God’s timing truly matters, not the ticking of my watch.

My love and gratitude for each of you, LoLo

2 Peter 3:8
But do not let this one fact escape your notice, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years like one day.

My Journey Begins

LoLo Roberts

I was recently accepted into The Open Bible Academy, a two-and-a-half-year program designed for laypeople who want to study seminary without pursuing a ministry position. Although I’ve wanted to apply for several years, I felt called by God to complete my application only last fall. I’ve included this link for you to learn more. https://www.the-oba.org/

I began this journey feeling insecure and inadequate, as I had been out of school for over forty years. I was not the best student during my school years; I was often disinterested and mediocre, prioritizing my social life over my studies. I was never one to think of the future but only of the present.

Since starting this class three weeks ago, I’ve realized that I struggle with studying and understanding my reading assignments. I also didn’t fully grasp what a rubric is. I was aware of my lack of knowledge regarding college and academic terminology, and it’s clear that I need additional support to improve. It was time for me to reassess and adopt a new approach to traditional college course studying. I had to bow my head and kneel to pray for guidance.

“God,” I prayed, “You have placed me here to draw closer to You and to better understand Your words. I need You desperately. I feel like I am sinking fast and must come up for air to grasp what I am meant to do. Please provide me with Your guidance and the resources to fulfill my purpose in my class. I pray this in Jesus’ name. Amen.”

I sent my SOS to Heaven, hoping that God would find favor in me and grant my prayer. As I had hoped, He was there for me. The next day, I sat with my textbook open, staring at the words, and I felt His presence lifting me. “Listen to My words as you read,” I felt Him say. I took God’s guidance by buying an audiobook that corresponds with my Bible, which would be a good idea so I could hear His words as I read them. It is like God speaking to me directly.

This blog post is brief, but I must focus on my first writing assignment: my perspective on Creation and humanity’s relationship with God. Even though I now understand a rubric and have a step-by-step example of how to structure this paper and the expected flow, I still bow my head, seeking God’s guidance to complete this assignment. I hope you will join me on this journey as I explore my weaknesses and witness how God will develop my faith and devotion to Him.

With love and gratitude, LoLo

Isaiah 43:19
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”

God, I’m Giving All This to You!

LoLo Roberts

It has been quite a while since I have written a blog post. So much is happening in my ministry, such as feeding insecure senior citizens food, bridging gaps for communities in crisis, and trying to care for myself.

Each April I participate in an Evening of Emowerment. This is an event that victims of violent crime are invited to attend for an opportunity to meet with counselors and legal aid and be pampered. This event offers beautiful meals, new clothing, groceries, massages, and yoga. My purpose at the event is to pray over victims and their families to inspire HOPE and let them know they are not alone.

Every year, I struggle to hear heartbreaking stories and want to fix everyone’s problems through prayer. Over the last five years, praying for 100s of people has caused me to be a bit fearful. Each year becomes more challenging and complex, yet God draws me back every year to serve these families in His name.

I made a “Give It to God” jar this year. This jar would allow women to give what they are struggling with to God and release it from their control. They could write what they wanted to release on a card, fold it, and put it in the jar. I asked them as they placed the card in the jar to ask God to take their struggle from them.

I always wait a few days before I open the card. I want to sit in a quiet, reflective space to read each card. This year, as expected, the cards were more challenging to read. I am not posting the exact prayer request, but a watered-down version. If you are a prayer warrior, please consider praying over a few of these women.

I pray to meet a wonderful, faithful man who will be a father to my son.

I pray to be free of an abusive home life.

Please pray I can be better.

Pray for my disabled body.

I pray that God will forgive me for the life I have led.

I am pregnant and in a domestic violence shelter. Pray my baby is born without complications and we receive a home.

Pray my children come back to God.

Join me in prayer.

Father, Our Gracious God, place your healing hands on these 34 women who feel less than they are or struggling to let go of their struggles. May they begin to trust You and feel Your peace and love for them. May they know that Jesus died on the cross for each of them. I pray that Your peace lands in their hearts and minds as they accept Jesus and Your unconditional love for each of them. Father, make Your presence known to them this very day. I love and trust you, Father, and in Jesus’ holy and precious name, with the power of the Holy Spirit, I pray for these women and children. Amen.

My love and gratitude for you, LoLo.

Walking Through Grief From Fentanyl Poisoning

LoLo Roberts

Death is all around us. When I speak of death, I am not only talking of physical death and loss of loved ones but also of death in society. The Bible presents death as separation: physical death is the separation of the soul from the body, and spiritual death is the separation of the soul from God.

This past weekend, I spoke to a group of families (mainly moms) who have lost their children to fentanyl poisoning and are in extreme grief. They were confused by unanswered questions, dazed by the sudden loss, and present with broken hearts. There were tears, there were fears, and there was emptiness.

I walked into the room and was concerned about relating to the group since I hadn’t had any dealings with fentanyl poisoning. I didn’t know any information about this drug except that it was an aggressive killer and random as to who it would kill. In 2022, there were 4,925 unintentional drug overdoses in Texas. Greater than 44% of those deaths were fentanyl deaths; 2,192 beautiful people became angels and are no longer with us. In 2020, there were 891 fentanyl poisonings in Texas; in 2021, 1648, and 2,192 in 2022. This is a rapid increase in a very short time. The numbers are still being compiled for 2023. The graph below is provided by: https://healthdata.dshs.texas.gov/dashboard/drugs-and-alcohol/fentanyl-trends

Until this meeting, I didn’t really know what fentanyl was. Fentanyl is a synthetic opioid that is 50 times more potent than heroin and 100 times more potent than morphine. Just two milligrams of fentanyl, which is equal to 10-15 grains of table salt, is considered a lethal dose (see picture below). The two moms facilitating this class explain that fentanyl is very cheap. A single dose of fentanyl is considered to be 100 mcg-400 mcg and can cost about $2 or less. The cost of heroin is around $20 per dose. One of the major problems with fentanyl sold on the street is that there is no way to know how much fentanyl something actually contains, and it is one of the easiest opioids to overdose on.

It is sadly not uncommon now to find heroin, cocaine, methamphetamine, or MDMA (ecstasy, molly, or mandy) laced with fentanyl on the street. Due to its high potency and low cost per dose, street dealers have found it to be a useful filler or substitute when selling other, more expensive street drugs. (https://www.addictionresource.net/cost-of-drugs/prescription/fentanyl/)

The group I was speaking to was NTX Angel Moms. I met one of the moms last fall at an event I was attending with Grateful Gratitude. I was visiting with the community offering prayers and gratitude hearts. A lady named Jeri approached my table and was so sad. She told me she had lost her daughter and she missed her so much. She didn’t tell me how the loss occured and I didn’t ask seeing her hurt. I asked her to choose a heart to take with her and to remember that I cared for her and would be praying for her peace.

Two weeks ago, Jeri sent me an email and said she was launching a new support group and asked if I would come speak on the importance of journaling and share gratitude hearts with the family members. She then told me she lost her daughter, Jessie to fyntanyl poisoning. Even though I was not sure I could be of help on the subject of fentanyl poisoning, I hoped God would make me a help through the grief support I offer.

The meeting started with family members talking about their family member and how they found out about the loss. I didn’t cry tears on the outside but I felt my heart breaking as they spoke. Some had few words to share, some a lot, all the words clung to my soul. Here were beautiful people living life, yes some with struggles but none with intentions of dying. I saw the faces of the lost loved ones, again, beautiful faces full of life. Please don’t be a person that says I don’t need to know about this because it doesn’t partain to me. It does. We just lost a outstanding teen in a neighboring community to this viscious drug.

I want to show you some pictures from the gathering. Pictures of two moms fighting to save other family members with fentanyl poisoning awareness. Pictures of a few faces lost, now angels and never forgotten. Please reach out to NTX Angel Moms or Because Cullen to have them speak at your PTA meetings, church gatherings, parents groups, or meet with them alone to become educated on how to slow and stop this loss. More information may be found at: https://www.dea.gov/onepill and at Because Cullen: https://www.facebook.com/groups/330821742943543

May God bless you and your families and I pray you learn more about saving lives.                      

               Love & Gratitude, LoLo.

The Two Books I Live By

LoLo Roberts

When I was young, I read for pleasure. There were no handheld video games or computers with unlimited information. I read to live through books. I loved Judy Blume’s books. I think I lived out my adventures and dreams through books; the more descriptive, the better.

Of course, these days, few people read. My book collection is long gone, and most books on my nightstand get started and then sit in a pile. I intend to finish them, but then life gets in the way. My book collection now sits on my Kindle. An electronic collection of books that I can visually see how much I have read and how much remains. The premise is the same whether they sit in a pile next to my nightstand or on my iPad. Two books don’t receive this treatment. The Bible authored by God, and How Not To Die by Dr. Michael Greger. I hold these books in my hands, turn the pages, and savor the words on each page.

These books have become very important to me for various reasons. Let’s first look at the Bible.

Rick Warren once said, “The Bible is your owner’s manual. It has all the answers you need, whether it is temptation, money, love, cheating, your career, relational issues, basically anything you deal with in life is answered there!” He said that most complicated things in life need a manual to understand how it works. For example, a car needs a manual to understand how everything works on a car. The signals, the maintenance needed, the type of gas, the air pressure for the tires, and so on.

Just like the car, we need a manual to understand how we are to live. God guides us on how to have a faithful marriage, treat others, be obedient to Him, do business fairly, care for our bodies, and so on. God has covered everything! When I struggled with alcohol addiction, God had the answer.


Envy, drunkenness, orgies (parties), and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.     Galatians 5:21

When I struggled with anxiety, God had the answers.

“I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.”
Psalm 34:4

say to those with fearful hearts,
    “Be strong, do not fear;
your God will come,
    he will come with vengeance;
with divine retribution
    he will come to save you.” Isaiah 35:4

When I overspent, God had the answer.

When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. James 4:3

When I was overweight and acted in a glutinous way, God had the answer.

Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

This last Bible verse led me to the other book I heavily lean on. Dr. Greger’s book is based on published medical and scientific studies proving that the food God gives us allows us to flourish for His glory. Not processed fast food that makes up the Standard American Diet that is referred to as the SAD diet. God says my body is a temple for Him to dwell within. Why have I been filling my temple with foods that aren’t nourishing or made by God’s hands? Why did I choose convenience over nutrition?

Ash Wednesday, 2023, I prayed for 40 people for 40 days. My prayer list included 23 people with chronic intense medical diseases (pancreatitis, cancer, diabetes, and heart disease) as well as 13 people with mental health issues (anxiety and depression). This didn’t leave many spots for the prayer requests to pray for others wanting to become pregnant, find a new career, build relationships, or draw closer to God. This led me to research why this prayer list was heavily tilted toward health prayers. I quickly learned that lifestyle and food changes can prevent most of these conditions. Simply eat food the way God intended and as closely to how He made it. Whole food, nutrient-dense foods, and plant-based. You may say God created cows, pigs, and chickens to eat, but I ask you, what do these animals eat? Plants, we are eating the middle man when they are nourishing themselves on plants, not meat.

My husband says that when I believe in something, I become exuberant and forget that not everyone wants to accept Jesus or become plant-based. I remind him of John 4:17,

So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.

I feel that if I have knowledge of a better life, whether in knowing Jesus or eating a healthy diet to reduce illness and not share it, I am committing a sin. Jesus teaches us to plant seeds so that lives will blossom.

Healthy plants (beans, seeds, nuts, vegetables, fruits, grains) are filled with protein, amino acids, and nutrients with ZERO cholesterol. More information can be found at: https://www.forksoverknives.com/how-tos/plant-based-primer-beginners-guide-starting-plant-based-diet/

God even tells us He will provide all the food we need. 

Then God said, “Behold, I have given you every plant yielding seed that is on the surface of all the earth, and every tree which has fruit yielding seed; it shall be food for you; Genesis 1:29

I wanted to include the table of contents from Dr. Greger’s book to show you how not to die from 15 different conditions by eating a whole food plant-based diet. If you take medication for any of these conditions, consider learning more about how this type of eating may save your life, reduce your medicines, and possibly allow you to live longer.

Many people take the approach of, I will do the best I can here on earth and face God when it’s time, or if I get sick, I’ll just take a pill to fix my illness. You are absolutely entitled to make those decisions. I ask that you find a better and healthier life in my two favorite books.

May God bless you this very day, and thank you for reading my blog. LoLo